i wanted to be emotional but i could not. i want to lift the weight off but i could not. i wanted to cry but i could not. i keep feeling helpless and wanted to call for help but i could not. All i could do is to put on a mask. my dao mask.

Just relised that i have forgotten how to cry...

Remembering the days when i was in primary 4, i used to cry every time when i have social studies lesson. This was because my teacher always called me names and bullied me. Unable to stand this verbal abuse, i just cry... Since then, i promised to myself. Forget how to cry.

Although i maybe be smiling all the time, it is never the same me in the inside...

Heck with what i feel, most importantly is that the people out there never feels my saddness and sorrow. My happiness can share but not my saddness.

If one day i would break down... Please never tell me how strong i am...

If one day i would break down... Please console me...

most importantly, support me.