When you are filled with rage

When you are filled with rage deep in yourself
Inflicting pain on others...
Slow down, Listen to your heart beating.

Thump... Thump...

Is this what you want it to be?
Could you make it happen?

Or is it just frustrations
Due to tiredness

Slow down.
Search yourself

Think back.
Think harder.

Confusion or enlightenment?
Chaos or peace?

Waves or ripples?

Confusion inside of me. Need to make sense of my actions. Reflect. Listen to others. Acquire knowledge. Think.

3 Doors Down

Didn't know that "Here without you" is performed by 3 Doors Down. A great tune that I remembered. Good for emo-ing

Here Without You

A hundred days had made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated
but I hope it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me (repeat)

And there's another song that I had started to re-listen. Also by 3 Doors Down. It's "Away from the Sun". Not too good for emo-ing. Good for knocking sense into yourself. LOL

Away from the Sun

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done
I missed the life
I missed the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't do what I've done

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

And I always thought this song started this way; I'm down to this, I gonna make this Love make sense. LOL, I have bad hearing.

We should be damn glad that our country is small. We do not need to stay in hostel at the tender age of 10 years old.

Read this

THIS!

Don't think...

I think that my original post for today is crap and selfish. So i scraped it.

Let me do a post about relationships. The boy girl kind. Not the gay/les type.

Although I'm a super greenhorn about this. I got no what so ever pass experience about it. I guess reading some useful stuffs would help too right?

So... Let's say that you have recently broken up with some girl you like or for the ladies; broken with a guy you really like.

Then you get real depressed right?

This way, you had allowed yourself to become a victim of the relationship. But why let yourself be one when you have your youth?

Youths should live their life courageously. Be strong hearted. You should not allow yourself to fall behind or hide in the shadows.

Those few statements are pretty hard to shallow right? But please go reflect on that. Compare yourself to others who may be even worst then what you had just under go. Your's just a minor thing compared to them.

So get back on your feet. THINK. COOL down. Get your life back to order.

what to do when you have nothing to do???

DRAW!

Er.. Er... I ponder

Er... Er...

*insert post here*

GOOD NIGHT EVERYBODY!

Photographs

This post is about photographs, but this time, there's no poem.

I got this weird imagination. My mind seems to capture images like photographs! Visualizing scenes as though they would through a camera.

In the mrt: The no eating, no durian, no gas sign. The standing bar. The handles. A sleeping man. A old person with sparkling eyes.

Walking to my work place: the car under the parking sign. A old bicycle. The old man who always hang out at the benches near the greenery.

At my work place: nothing much. People laughing?

After work, walking on a different shorter path to the mrt station: cars going down the roads!

But I missed this one out. Quite disappointed by it. The slippery floor sign in the tunnel of the met station towards my work place! It was there last year. Now it's gone!

不敢爱你

不敢爱你

我不想分离， 所以不去爱你
默默地把感情躲在心里...

难道你能告诉我，你也很爱我，
我才拔出勇气去爱你...

我只想要个肯定...

Chinese emotional songs rocks. Lyrics writing is a kind of 24 hours 7 days a week job. It's not 9 to 5 thing. It's different.

Japan's earthquake

Japan's latest earthquake is terrible!

To think that I am trying to save up lots of cash to go Japan. Hmmm... Save up the cash first then decide if I would want to go next year.

Btw. I don't like Rachelle(from work).

She thinks I'm gay.

So WTF! How did I became gay???

And now Nancy thinks I'm also gay.

WTF???

Lucky Jimmy and the rest know I'm normal.

Samsung or Sony ericsson or Motorola?

Samsung, Sony ericsson or Motorola???

Time to save up LOTS of cash for a new phone. My present phone is great, but then it's so broad.

Then uncomfortable in my pocket. So i guess I would want a slim phone.

But then Samsung Ultra slim 3G or Sony Ericsson W880i or Motorola Ekor( new one, don't know what's the model. )


PHONE PHONE PHONE!

This ani't emo

I thought I could blog an emo post today. Guess I'm wrong. In fact, writing that would make me do something that I promised myself not to do again.

But this sentence I would have to get it off me. If not I would be xyy-ing all night till next week or 2.



I still preferred your old jet black hair as though I liked my black hair too. It made you look much much more cuter. Much much more lovelier. Much much more prettier. Much much more adorable. Much much more gentler. Much much more lovable. Much much more sexier. Much much more elegant. And so many much much more. Make me love you much much more???

It's just a thought
Oh, it's just a thought.

Just to think so. I loved her that way.

*sighs.

The Spinto Band

The Spinto Band

Brown Boxes. This song is funky lah!

I like this verse: " Tell me what to do. And if she wants to argue, I'll remind her that we're through."


NICE.

Superb Pass

Superb pass.

Give it up, Give up right now

Give it up

Give it up
Give it up right now.
Give it up
She isn't your's anymore

Give it up
Give her up right now
Giver her up
She don't love you anymore

Let her go
Let her go right now
Let her be
Let her fly away.




A little song treat. Got this inspiration while doing business in the toilet. No special meaning or what so every. Not suffering from any depression or under going breakup.

I'm a single, remember?

So don't think too much into that song.

I realized something damn important. I have been neglecting my buddies! Aiyo, I appear the leastest in everything!

Let me see, in shopping for birthday gifts, in lunch/dinner/supper, in gaming sessions, in gathering.

The list goes down on and on.

And on top of it, I got Soka commitments and work too.

Tough being a student during the holidays man.

I'm one sad kid

I'm one sad kid. My colleagues thinks I'm a gay. It's like WTF? Excuse ME!?

All because I don't flirt with girls? Because I sometimes( i emphasize on sometimes ) read female magazines, or I chat with females about hair styles make me gay???

Then I'm one sad kid.


The little boy, lost in one corner. Dull and dumb you may be.
Look around and see the world. You will realize what a wonderful world it is
Take a little break and feel the world. Know the mistakes, learn the music
Change it to what you want.
That's what a boy should do.

Boy, do not cry.
Boy, look up high.
Think, what could you do
To, save the world

Boy, do not sigh
Save, save the world
Man, is in chaos
Nature, is dying

Boy, do not cry
Boy, look up high
Think, what could you do
To, save the world

Help the people, make it fast
Give a helping hand, make a action
Thoughts are nothing, but effort does
Try, is a little thing,
But it's a great big help

Boy, do not cry.
Boy, look up high.
Think, what could you do
To, save the world

Boy, do not sigh
Save, save the world
Man, is in chaos
Nature, is dying

Youtube Love song

this is how much he loves youtube.

I got sadden.

THEY FORGOT TO COUNT ME! Read wong's post at wongiedotblogspotdotcom.

我可以

我可以　陪你去看星星
不用再多说明　我就要和你在一起
我不想　又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽　是因为你

Meaningful song. Yeh...

It's a LAN PARTY!

Yup! It's a LAN PARTY!

I got the HUB, I got a few LAN cables, SO lets all bring down the laptops for A LAN PARTY!

It time to sleep!

It's time to sleep. It's already 4.35am, but I'm still trying to login to MSN.

Stupid network, I conclude that it's down that's why I couldn't get in. I need to CHAT before I can sleep

NOW I CANT SLEEP! MUST BE the double shot I had over dinner. T-T

Wait, I'm feeling sleepy now. Blogging cures insomnia! MUAHAHAHA!

Windows Live Messenger

Windows Live Messenger.

It's a mess. Once you do a Windows Update, the Windows Live Messenger goes haywire. Thus I'm stuck at my computer for 2 hours 45 minutes, wondering what's the next possible step to resolve this problem.

I CAN DO IT!

I'm a 18!

I'm a 18! YEAH!

I kinda compose this half poem today at the Mrt today.

Eyes bright as the sun
Future beaming of life
Wouldn't time bring you down?
Tearing the path apart.

Skin show lines
But still
Your eyes shine as though it was then.

I want to be a MAC OWNER!

I want to be a MacBook Pro OWNER!

It looks cool sia...

But my true love is a Mac Pro. Intel Xeon 3.0gHz X 2, 1TB of storage. ATI Redeon X1900 512MB RAM, 4GB of memory RAM.

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT AT A PRICE OF USD $7500!

What a weird day.

What a weird day.

My office is such weird place. One moment it can get very quiet, the next moment it would be very noisy and crowded.

Haiz...

So there I was, doing some editing and coding and having to bear the noise and then the extreme quietness. Weird huh?

Not to mention, office got more cooler. New office area just for operative team. Means no more " You can't say that with the boss around!"

I got a proper desk. The air con does not blows directly at me anymore. I got proper table lamp too!

And the MINERAL WATER IS NOT FREEZING COLD anymore!

= )

A proper blog

I must blog a proper entry today.

I realized that I have been typing nonsense lately, maybe not nonsense, maybe it's a little funny in my way.

SO... I shall blog properly before I go to bed and get ready for the DEMANDING work tomorrow!

Let me see...

My birthday's coming! That's one. There's also Fishy's birthday, Jazreel and Jun Hao's birthday. Not to mention Dalip, Vinita, Melissa, Guo Wei and Lala too. The bad thing is, the result is released a day before my birthday. Hmmm.... I hope I will get the results I wanted, that would be the birthday gift for myself. On the other hand, I have a birthday wish; I wish that all my friends would not kena supp paper(*think some of them say they will kena. Sian.).

I got work without asking! That's another one.
I was thinking the day before they msged me to go back to work, would I be able to go back since my in-charge and my friend already -----. Then the next morning while I was using the computer: Hi this is XX from XX company, would you be free to work from Monday to Friday?

My jaw dropped man.
And they include flexible time too! But I got to work on my birthday...

I guess my birthday is going to be some lazy dinner where I would be eating and got no mood to be stupid. I'M GOING TO BE A CLEVER EIGHTEEN! LOL...

That's good.


I HAVE A BUSY WEEK AHEAD! CHIONG AH!!!

I got a JOB!

YEH!!! I got a job!!! Yes ah!

But it's kinda weird as yesterday I thought I couldn't get that job back.

So I would be working from monday to friday, and I don't know if I could be free. On the other hand, I got flexible work hours.

I got rammed into my face

At the street soccer court behind the Tampines Sports Stadium today... I got rammed into the face while trying to block the ball. Now it feels weird as it acted up an hour ago.

So I have been thinking, what has my arms been doing?

Playing GE

Granado Espada is addictive. So addictive that I decided not to go for buffet lunch with my friends at Suki Sushi so as to stay at home to play GE.

BTW... I'm low in cash, so even I want to eat lunch with them, I got no means to do so. Sobs... Sobs...

I spotted another bug! Yet, being the lazy me, I decided not to screen shot, I decided to wait till Monday to do so. hahas...

Let me see, March is wonderfully blood sucking month. Class chalet, birthdays, another chalet with is mother f***ing expensive. Not to mention, getting presents for friends with will kill me. Oh well, I get killed every now and then. Get kill again doesn't matter to me any more.

So I was at Mac with the guys. They were talking about the Xbox360's Gears of War. That's the game the 360 is all about. Not Dead or Alive: beach volleyball 2 or so other gay games. That's the only game I would only want to play all day long on that awesome machine. Yet another dream, another fantasy... Low in cash.

Let me see... In this March-April holiday, I got to do many things. First, get a job. Second, fix the gundam kit I had since before I enrolled to TP. Third, fix my bicycle's brakes. Fourth, get back in shape or at least slim down and there's fifth, sixth, and much much more.

My bicycle doesn't like me to escape from problems

My bicycle hates me. I know that. After I fixed the tires problems, I got a new problem.


The front brakes are not working properly. Thus I have declared it: UNFIT FOR CYCLING.

Haiz... There goes my solution for the bbq tonight...

Plan of tomorrow's torture of the march babies

Plan of Tomorrow's Torture of the March Babies

I'm a March baby, so is lala, Dalip, Calip, Guowei, Vinita and Melissa.

Sh*t man, they gonna dump flour and water mixture at us. And I don't want that to happen to me at all. I hate it. Lucky I went to the supermarket with them. I got rid of the Curry powder. Image that the Curry powder entering your eyes. The extreme stinging feeling. Ouch!!!

So I have decided. I would cycle down to ahola loyang. Park my bicycle near the guard's post. And sneak away when they did not notice. MUaahha...

But I guess it's gonna fail. So I decided to stick near to Mr Chua.

= )

What A Wonderful World...

"I would want to be a teacher... So I could create the perfect environment for the children."

That was the words from a Japanese exchange student whom I met today over dinner. It struck me deeply.

Noble is what I could ever think at that moment.

Although at a young age of 22, the young Japanese Soka University student nicknamed Bear-bear ( a bit cute for young guy like him, but that's his name) speaks in halting English. His dreams were crystal clear to me. This is why he wants to be a educator. This is why he wants to study on education. This is his noble dream....

To create a environment for the children.

There are many who shared this noble dream. One of his seniors, graduating in 70 days time told us that he wants to be a kindergarten teacher. Another young lady said she wants to be a elementary school teacher. I salute them, for as I know, kids these days, are monstrous.